"People...........come ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

Those words were uttered by my Noah yesterday. I laughed hysterically knowing that I should actually be ashamed. We sat in a car line at Fort Worth Christian school waiting to pick up Noah's babysitter from school. If you have kids in school, you may know you wait in this line--somewhat parked--waiting for your child to come running to your car. We were not in "traffic" which is what Noah thought. And he quoted his mother's famous daily lines, "Peeeeople..........come ON!!!!! MOVE!!!!!!!!!!" I seriously laughed because if you could hear his voice inflection, you know he passionately felt what I always feel....impatient, bored, and annoyed. A 2.5 year old!! Ugh, scary I know. I should be setting a much better example for him. God is revealing to me more and more each day (often in my face rather than subtly) that I like to have things a certain way. As I was diagnosed yesterday in a Bible study personal inventory I am a "Controller". Oh goodness, what a title. And it pretty much means what you would figure. Once a pattern has been established, and it's a good one, I like it to stay that way. I usually think I can make a better decision than someone else (if it's in my realm of knowledge). I can get easily frustrated with people.............need I go on? None of this sounds positive does it? So what does this mean for my marriage, friendships and parenting? It means I have to hop on this pronto and look at healthy ways of changing certain parts of this behavior. I believe this is why God has brought this to my attention so clearly the past 6 months or so. He knows I'm about to pop out kid #2 and my realm of control is going to diminish dramatically. So pray for me in this! I know God has made us all very unique and each quality has it's advantages and disadvantages. I just need to work on letting the advantages far outweigh the disadvantages right now. So I'll start with the simple task of not yelling at the stopped cars in front of me. :)